Tomorrow

Tomorrow. 

I'll floss tomorrow.

I'll give up dairy tomorrow. 

l'll start to exercise tomorrow.  

I'll take my camera out and just shoot what inspires me tomorrow. 

I'll start a positivity journal tomorrow.  

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In my personal life this year has been especially trying. One road bump after another. Every time it seems as though there is a light at the end of the tunnel - closer inspection just reveals another head on collision.  Damn these times are hard - but things will get better, tomorrow. 

The news about Paris took my breath away. It was purely devastating. My heart hurt so deeply and my well versed friend anxiety started to rear its unwelcome head. 

It has been so easy to get sucked up in the negative, and get stuck on the shitty luck we've had lately. But the reality is, despite the excessive crud, and despite the overwhelming amount of uncertainty in our current situation, we are tremendously blessed. Paris was yet another reminder of that which has been weighing on my heart lately. 

It's as though life has been trying to teach me the importance of really living in the present, of being present. When I look back to all that has taken place this year, I harden. When I look ahead to the future I am paralyzed with uncertainties. But when I stop and breathe - I realize that in far more moments then not- everything is OK - I am OK - and I am still breathing. 

When I heard of Paris I was flooded with a million emotions. But, given my context, I felt an overwhelming need to really be more thankful and positive TODAY - not tomorrow.  

Some day, tomorrow won't come. And if that day is indeed tomorrow, I don't want to have wasted my today waiting for better times. 

I have three beautiful happy healthy souls in my care every day. I don't want to waste another minute overlooking them, or overlooking life, for the sake of stress. I'm sure I will fall. I'm sure I'll get caught up in things that don't really matter- but today my desire is stronger then ever to see the light and to embrace it. To be present and to be thankful for this ever so chaotic and beautiful ride of life. 

St. Augustine Family Photographer | Disney World

When I was 5 my grandma took me to Disney for the first time. My grandma is still awesome and decided to take Summer this year for her 5th birthday. Since Cannon and Lena are still free, Gram gave us an early and very very special Christmas gift and took the whole gang of us to tag along! Here are just a few of my favorite moments from the day :) 

St. Augustine Family Photographer | Cannon 4 months

My sweet sweet boy is already 4 months old and tipping the scales at 16lbs 11oz. Man oh man how I love this little boy! Being that he's the third kid and life has been nothing short of crazy we almost didn't take these. But anyone who knows me and my OCD with traditions and all things scrap booking knows it had to be done! So here he is!

Dear Cannon, 

At four months old you're becoming an active participant in your environment. Looking around - interacting with us. You're stingy with your laughs but are the happiest most smiling baby I've ever met. All anyone has to do to get a giant grin from you is simply look your way and you give you giant crooked grin. Your expressions are hilarious. Your eyebrows are almost always raised. You love your toes and feet. And putting them in your mouth. You make it obvious where the  happy baby asana comes from. You're so active already - always kicking and punching and flailing about. You never sit still. You're also a super speedy grabber of anything within reach - your big sisters' hair, or dinner on the table. And in typical baby fashion it always goes straight to your mouth. You can sit up for a few moments - but then you fold forward. You are such a happy light in our lives and I cannot thank you enough for all the love and joy you have brought us already. I love you so so very much Mr. Man. 

Your Stats:

Weight: 16 lbs 11 oz (75%)  |  Height : 25.5 inches (50%)  |  Head Circumference : 43.5cm (85%)