Who knew Mother's Day could be such a loaded holiday? Last year I felt sorry for myself as my first year as a single mom with no one celebrating me or helping me with the kids. It feels so silly looking back but I remember how hard all the happy posts were to see. It really hit home this year how many friends I have who have lost their mothers already - a pain I cannot even begin to wrap my head around. I am BEYOND lucky to still have my mom, grandmother and GREAT grandmother still in my life. Even the thought of losing any of them makes my physically ill. Some mothers have lost children. I cannot imagine a worse pain in this world. I am in awe of the people who have weathered that storm and can't even imagine the emotions this day stirs up. And then the countless woman who yearn so deeply to be mothers, but can't - because of infertility or life circumstances. When I really look around my 'problems' are so, so insignificant.
At the same time motherhood has been the biggest blessing in my life. These kids that drive me crazy also give me purpose and carry me through the dark days. Witnessing birth and the love of mothers is the cornerstone of my business and has had such a profound impact on every aspect of my life that I can't even begin to put it into words. I want to celebrate mothers, motherhood and all that it is and stands for- because I think it’s important. But I don’t want that celebration to inadvertently bring up a world of hurt for other humans. Idk what the answer is.